| and you kissed me like you meant it... |
[Jun. 2nd, 2005|09:57 pm] |
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| |  sleeppppyyyy! | ] |
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| | dashboard // hands down | ] |
okay so basically this past month has been ehhhhh to blahhhh shit. drama. but yesterday for sure topped it all off. so basically i got a speeding ticket and my inspection was like expired. this cop was an ass too! omgosh!!!!!!!!! grrr he gave me a fuckin breathalizer (spelling?) at 8 on a wednesday. whatever he was such a dick and yeah... so i have to go to some class for four hours tomorrow to make sure my insurance doesnt go up and etc. then i get to take my SAT on saturday... then it will be summer '05 get crunkkkkkkkkkk!
um anyway my day was shit yesterday. dougherty called, i dono what im about- im scared shitless... patrick came over which was fun we chilled... and before that tyler and milas came over (i love them soooooo much). well anyway... im out but any loving comments would be cute.
oh and arent the words girth and moist sooooo sick! ewww |
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| you almost made me cry again this time... |
[May. 25th, 2005|08:58 pm] |
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| |  ... | ] |
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| | the used | ] |
this is how i feel about something ha:
FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
that felt kinda good. i think im gonna go punch the shit out of a pillow or two.
i love you<3 |
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| touchin and kissin... just a little bit |
[May. 21st, 2005|01:39 pm] |
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| |  giggly | ] |
| [ | music |
| | fityyyyyyy yawww! | ] |
so anyway. this week has been good, i really slacked off though, it was quite dissapointing. buttt i was way happier this week than last.
last night: mary's. the girls told me i had a massive huge boulder comet bowling ball size dent in my car! fuckkkkk? yeah. and then "don't think... DRINK!"... stacy had a very cute benadryl back expirience. mary is very good at shot put cell phone style. lynn came oh so fun. i loved all the people there. the boys are so cute! i think that the night could have been a little better if random sketch people didnt come but whatever! i wasnt really there with them so it doesnt make a difference. it was fun hanging out with everybody, including julien.
ummmm i cleaned up this morning for a while, then mary and i went to chick fila a... then made pyramids out of cans took random pictures of two pieces of gum sitting on her side table next to the bed.... I DIDNT DO IT haaaaaa. im getting junior-itis or something cause i dont feel like doing anything but having fun! i have to study though, cause kenneth just talked about hanging out tonight with some people.
i have a weird bruise? on my arm. ehhhh i need to return pants to hollister sometime today.
and john stevenson is my favorite! yay. oh yeah and i love everbody (carrie+mary) ha yay! oh yeah and i might be hanging out with patrick later go team! |
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| it's time to try anything to be with you... |
[May. 14th, 2005|05:11 pm] |
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| | haaa! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | ryan cabrerra (im cool i know) | ] |
wow! this has been a pretty good day. its ms. k.lovatts bday! happy birthday baby i love you! ummm basically this week has been a jumble of confusion. but its cleared up i think. i apoligze to everyone for walking around with a blank stare or angry face. that is not me and that is extremly loser-ish. and im back to be my bad ass self again!
everybody did very well at the track thing, i love carrie lemons!
i had fun last night with some people i dont normally chill with! so that was good. hopefully tonight will be fun ive got to babysit so thats gonna suck!!!but hopefully ill be hanging out with cool people.
mkah i love everyone and adios biatches! |
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| i've come to find... |
[May. 12th, 2005|03:51 pm] |
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| |  eeeekkkkk! | ] |
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| | duncan sheik | ] |
...i may never know, if your changing mind, is a friend or foe.
^ and thats true! but i know the answer, looks like im smarter than duncan sheik!
mhm so... gay. um school=gay. drama=gay. boys=gay. exams=gay. sats=gay. germany=hopefully not gay. if i ever decide to go against a good idea, slap me in the face. if i have my mind set on something and im close to making myself believe it then dont let me be like cool let me cave!! alright im so done...
i wish i could quit something like right away, whenever i wanted to be and be like ha sucker ure done! but its ok because im totally gonna teach myself how to do that im gonna be so whipped...by me! ah im so cool.
anyway enough about that... tomorrow is friday the 13th. its supposed to be bad right? oh well maybe since this week has decided to slap me in the face five times itll be nice and be like "oh okay heres a friday" tomorrow is a day 7 which is normally a good thing, we shall see.
on another topic of complete gayness that i should be stoked about: the oc. i have to make up two episodes and i guess i wont be joining my oc buddy. im not going into details however yet again is it gay? i think so!
this is the longest journal entry ever. so im done!!!!!! hahahaha i love everyone, im sorry im complaining i promise ill get better soon!
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You really had me going, wishing on a star
But the black holes that surround you are heavier by far
I believed in your confusion, you were so completely torn
It must've been that yesterday was the day that i was born
There's not much to examine, there's nothing left to hide
You really can't be serious, if you have to ask me why
I say goodbye...
Cause I am barely breathing
And I can't find the air
Don't know who I'm kidding
Imagining you care
And I could stand here waiting
A fool for another day
I don't suppose it's worth the price, you're worth the price
The price that I would pay
Everyone keeps asking, what's it all about?
I used to be so certain and I can't figure out
What is this attraction? I only feel the pain
There's nothing left to reason and only you to blame
Will it ever change?
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| something about the way... |
[May. 11th, 2005|08:17 pm] |
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| | fff youuuu! | ] |
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| | the killers | ] |
... your hair falls in your face.
i love how certain people can make that part of the song so different and its awesome. anyway the last few days have been far from epic. its like okay each day you start over, but u cant just completely erase whatever happened yesterday or the day before. mmm i wish.
i have all this stuff that i wanna say and completely blurt out to my stupid livejournal (cause no one reads it anyway) but i cant bc then its like ill be exposed or something. but wouldnt that be good and then let it out and be done with it? im not trying to make this entry deep im just thinking... outloud/into the computer, im gay. k cool. i like being around people and not at school. school=bad. friends and being away=good. when ur with people u can kind of think about other things but like not nearly as much as you would if u were by yourself. i had a very awesome time with amy and tim tonight, target was f-n hilarious.
ahhhhhhhh its like every situation relates to gaynesssssssssss!! someone was singing collide at school. ha alison... then i get in the car to talk about something wait for it... mr. brightside comes on, then that stupid john mayer song at some point, then the stupid target costumer services... then i see this stupid car its like theres only 4 of them in charlotte! pleaseeeeeeeee drive by me one more time. GAY! mmmm im sure there are other things but i dont need to vent anymore. ill probably delete this entry before anyone can read it.
i just cant look its killing me... |
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| look for the girl with broken smile... |
[May. 10th, 2005|07:08 pm] |
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| |  hmm? | ] |
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| | maroon 5 | ] |
... ask her if she wants to stay a while and she will be loved.
so today was interesting-
ummmmm stuff is so weird. i dont know its like one day its good one day its bad... too complicated
prom was a blast with tyler, i mean i had as much fun as a i could! and yeah every one looked amazing! ahhhhhh so awesome...
lauras was fun, rumors went around etc. haa
but back to school being sketch. ok so its like i hate school and everyone knows, and its not that i dont like people its just certain people really annoy, and for a while coming to school was actually fine and even semi fun... but its back to being sketch and dumb again... its all stressful and the drama is like AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH hahaha oh well. guys the student center is so loud. exams are coming up then SAT then germany... which is going to hopefully be a blast and johanna and ruthie got us tickets and they are so cute and i love them!!!!! and yeah hopefully without a lot of outsiders point of views and opinions situations will be chill.
people are pretty cute, and did i mention i love my friends. i miss them though its like i barely see them. mhmmm it will get better im sure. well this journal entry is long enough i hope everyone has a super awesome day. |
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| im feelin this... |
[May. 4th, 2005|08:29 pm] |
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| | spice up your life | ] |
| [ | music |
| | blink 182 | ] |
goooooood day! so stuff is better. im sorry i have been so up and down. no worries... life is pro. hey look at me pro! germany is so soon, guys ahh im siked, lot of quality time with the patrick steele, and yes that's right we are seeing coldplay in germany so kick ass. and...
amy tim and i were bopping to blink and it was fun, i remembered the way fun parts about that concert and dont give a shit anymore about the bad parts... jonathans b day is coming up speaking of! hellaaaaa sweet.
i love my friends they are amazing
tyler!!!!!!! yayyyyyyyyyy saturday. ok go team for being the coolest cats EVER!
buscando a nemo in spanish. we never watch movies... this is totally my week or my day i dono!
friday should be fun... :) actually its mre like :D mhm how cool...
otayyyy well i have homework bihatches! that looks so sketch oh well peace outttttt |
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| even the best fall down sometimes |
[Apr. 30th, 2005|12:56 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | wtffffffffff mate! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the used | ] |
right. okay so basically this semster i have managed to fuck up every good stable thing ive had... which is pretty impressive. but then i got a lot of stuff better and i was like yay!!! and then double yay last week... wait for it. SIKE! in the past two days i have yet again managed to mess up a lot of shit. yes i am so cool. but i am going to make this day fun, although i wish it was sunny... but what can ya do?
relationships are weird. its like yay i really like this person, and then you break up or get in a fight... then the longer it goes by without talking to them the better (and no im not like always talking about patrick) everybody knows time makes everything better... and its so true and sometimes i forget that.
everything happens for a reason i guess? or so ive heard. so i have to finish my autobiography which ive barely started which should be fun...
thanks for listening to me rant and did i tell you guys how much i love you?
okay well its like the great wall of china!! that much
and proms next weekend... mixed feelings |
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| you and i collide... |
[Apr. 29th, 2005|06:44 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  eeeeeeek! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | howie day | ] |
haha okay. after a sucky day lots of moping and being gay. i have finally popped out of my "caroline sucks ego" to yay "normal caroline"...
for some reason i spazzed out about worthless shit, that i was thinking myself haha. i know exactly what everybody is saying, and people are really smart and know exactly what kinda of advice to give me.
basically i love everybody and i feel like an idiot for being gay. i wish i wasnt the way i am sometimes but theres nothing i can do. ha enough with the drama deep shit.
back to "caring less" hah.
<3 you |
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