| and you kissed me like you meant it... |
[Jun. 2nd, 2005|09:57 pm] |
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| |  sleeppppyyyy! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | dashboard // hands down | ] |
okay so basically this past month has been ehhhhh to blahhhh shit. drama. but yesterday for sure topped it all off. so basically i got a speeding ticket and my inspection was like expired. this cop was an ass too! omgosh!!!!!!!!! grrr he gave me a fuckin breathalizer (spelling?) at 8 on a wednesday. whatever he was such a dick and yeah... so i have to go to some class for four hours tomorrow to make sure my insurance doesnt go up and etc. then i get to take my SAT on saturday... then it will be summer '05 get crunkkkkkkkkkk!
um anyway my day was shit yesterday. dougherty called, i dono what im about- im scared shitless... patrick came over which was fun we chilled... and before that tyler and milas came over (i love them soooooo much). well anyway... im out but any loving comments would be cute.
oh and arent the words girth and moist sooooo sick! ewww |
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| you almost made me cry again this time... |
[May. 25th, 2005|08:58 pm] |
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| |  ... | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the used | ] |
this is how i feel about something ha:
FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
that felt kinda good. i think im gonna go punch the shit out of a pillow or two.
i love you<3 |
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| touchin and kissin... just a little bit |
[May. 21st, 2005|01:39 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  giggly | ] |
| [ | music |
| | fityyyyyyy yawww! | ] |
so anyway. this week has been good, i really slacked off though, it was quite dissapointing. buttt i was way happier this week than last.
last night: mary's. the girls told me i had a massive huge boulder comet bowling ball size dent in my car! fuckkkkk? yeah. and then "don't think... DRINK!"... stacy had a very cute benadryl back expirience. mary is very good at shot put cell phone style. lynn came oh so fun. i loved all the people there. the boys are so cute! i think that the night could have been a little better if random sketch people didnt come but whatever! i wasnt really there with them so it doesnt make a difference. it was fun hanging out with everybody, including julien.
ummmm i cleaned up this morning for a while, then mary and i went to chick fila a... then made pyramids out of cans took random pictures of two pieces of gum sitting on her side table next to the bed.... I DIDNT DO IT haaaaaa. im getting junior-itis or something cause i dont feel like doing anything but having fun! i have to study though, cause kenneth just talked about hanging out tonight with some people.
i have a weird bruise? on my arm. ehhhh i need to return pants to hollister sometime today.
and john stevenson is my favorite! yay. oh yeah and i love everbody (carrie+mary) ha yay! oh yeah and i might be hanging out with patrick later go team! |
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| it's time to try anything to be with you... |
[May. 14th, 2005|05:11 pm] |
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| | haaa! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | ryan cabrerra (im cool i know) | ] |
wow! this has been a pretty good day. its ms. k.lovatts bday! happy birthday baby i love you! ummm basically this week has been a jumble of confusion. but its cleared up i think. i apoligze to everyone for walking around with a blank stare or angry face. that is not me and that is extremly loser-ish. and im back to be my bad ass self again!
everybody did very well at the track thing, i love carrie lemons!
i had fun last night with some people i dont normally chill with! so that was good. hopefully tonight will be fun ive got to babysit so thats gonna suck!!!but hopefully ill be hanging out with cool people.
mkah i love everyone and adios biatches! |
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| i've come to find... |
[May. 12th, 2005|03:51 pm] |
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| |  eeeekkkkk! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | duncan sheik | ] |
...i may never know, if your changing mind, is a friend or foe.
^ and thats true! but i know the answer, looks like im smarter than duncan sheik!
mhm so... gay. um school=gay. drama=gay. boys=gay. exams=gay. sats=gay. germany=hopefully not gay. if i ever decide to go against a good idea, slap me in the face. if i have my mind set on something and im close to making myself believe it then dont let me be like cool let me cave!! alright im so done...
i wish i could quit something like right away, whenever i wanted to be and be like ha sucker ure done! but its ok because im totally gonna teach myself how to do that im gonna be so whipped...by me! ah im so cool.
anyway enough about that... tomorrow is friday the 13th. its supposed to be bad right? oh well maybe since this week has decided to slap me in the face five times itll be nice and be like "oh okay heres a friday" tomorrow is a day 7 which is normally a good thing, we shall see.
on another topic of complete gayness that i should be stoked about: the oc. i have to make up two episodes and i guess i wont be joining my oc buddy. im not going into details however yet again is it gay? i think so!
this is the longest journal entry ever. so im done!!!!!! hahahaha i love everyone, im sorry im complaining i promise ill get better soon!
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You really had me going, wishing on a star
But the black holes that surround you are heavier by far
I believed in your confusion, you were so completely torn
It must've been that yesterday was the day that i was born
There's not much to examine, there's nothing left to hide
You really can't be serious, if you have to ask me why
I say goodbye...
Cause I am barely breathing
And I can't find the air
Don't know who I'm kidding
Imagining you care
And I could stand here waiting
A fool for another day
I don't suppose it's worth the price, you're worth the price
The price that I would pay
Everyone keeps asking, what's it all about?
I used to be so certain and I can't figure out
What is this attraction? I only feel the pain
There's nothing left to reason and only you to blame
Will it ever change?
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| something about the way... |
[May. 11th, 2005|08:17 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | fff youuuu! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the killers | ] |
... your hair falls in your face.
i love how certain people can make that part of the song so different and its awesome. anyway the last few days have been far from epic. its like okay each day you start over, but u cant just completely erase whatever happened yesterday or the day before. mmm i wish.
i have all this stuff that i wanna say and completely blurt out to my stupid livejournal (cause no one reads it anyway) but i cant bc then its like ill be exposed or something. but wouldnt that be good and then let it out and be done with it? im not trying to make this entry deep im just thinking... outloud/into the computer, im gay. k cool. i like being around people and not at school. school=bad. friends and being away=good. when ur with people u can kind of think about other things but like not nearly as much as you would if u were by yourself. i had a very awesome time with amy and tim tonight, target was f-n hilarious.
ahhhhhhhh its like every situation relates to gaynesssssssssss!! someone was singing collide at school. ha alison... then i get in the car to talk about something wait for it... mr. brightside comes on, then that stupid john mayer song at some point, then the stupid target costumer services... then i see this stupid car its like theres only 4 of them in charlotte! pleaseeeeeeeee drive by me one more time. GAY! mmmm im sure there are other things but i dont need to vent anymore. ill probably delete this entry before anyone can read it.
i just cant look its killing me... |
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| look for the girl with broken smile... |
[May. 10th, 2005|07:08 pm] |
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| |  hmm? | ] |
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| | maroon 5 | ] |
... ask her if she wants to stay a while and she will be loved.
so today was interesting-
ummmmm stuff is so weird. i dont know its like one day its good one day its bad... too complicated
prom was a blast with tyler, i mean i had as much fun as a i could! and yeah every one looked amazing! ahhhhhh so awesome...
lauras was fun, rumors went around etc. haa
but back to school being sketch. ok so its like i hate school and everyone knows, and its not that i dont like people its just certain people really annoy, and for a while coming to school was actually fine and even semi fun... but its back to being sketch and dumb again... its all stressful and the drama is like AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH hahaha oh well. guys the student center is so loud. exams are coming up then SAT then germany... which is going to hopefully be a blast and johanna and ruthie got us tickets and they are so cute and i love them!!!!! and yeah hopefully without a lot of outsiders point of views and opinions situations will be chill.
people are pretty cute, and did i mention i love my friends. i miss them though its like i barely see them. mhmmm it will get better im sure. well this journal entry is long enough i hope everyone has a super awesome day. |
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| im feelin this... |
[May. 4th, 2005|08:29 pm] |
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| | spice up your life | ] |
| [ | music |
| | blink 182 | ] |
goooooood day! so stuff is better. im sorry i have been so up and down. no worries... life is pro. hey look at me pro! germany is so soon, guys ahh im siked, lot of quality time with the patrick steele, and yes that's right we are seeing coldplay in germany so kick ass. and...
amy tim and i were bopping to blink and it was fun, i remembered the way fun parts about that concert and dont give a shit anymore about the bad parts... jonathans b day is coming up speaking of! hellaaaaa sweet.
i love my friends they are amazing
tyler!!!!!!! yayyyyyyyyyy saturday. ok go team for being the coolest cats EVER!
buscando a nemo in spanish. we never watch movies... this is totally my week or my day i dono!
friday should be fun... :) actually its mre like :D mhm how cool...
otayyyy well i have homework bihatches! that looks so sketch oh well peace outttttt |
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| even the best fall down sometimes |
[Apr. 30th, 2005|12:56 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | wtffffffffff mate! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the used | ] |
right. okay so basically this semster i have managed to fuck up every good stable thing ive had... which is pretty impressive. but then i got a lot of stuff better and i was like yay!!! and then double yay last week... wait for it. SIKE! in the past two days i have yet again managed to mess up a lot of shit. yes i am so cool. but i am going to make this day fun, although i wish it was sunny... but what can ya do?
relationships are weird. its like yay i really like this person, and then you break up or get in a fight... then the longer it goes by without talking to them the better (and no im not like always talking about patrick) everybody knows time makes everything better... and its so true and sometimes i forget that.
everything happens for a reason i guess? or so ive heard. so i have to finish my autobiography which ive barely started which should be fun...
thanks for listening to me rant and did i tell you guys how much i love you?
okay well its like the great wall of china!! that much
and proms next weekend... mixed feelings |
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| you and i collide... |
[Apr. 29th, 2005|06:44 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  eeeeeeek! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | howie day | ] |
haha okay. after a sucky day lots of moping and being gay. i have finally popped out of my "caroline sucks ego" to yay "normal caroline"...
for some reason i spazzed out about worthless shit, that i was thinking myself haha. i know exactly what everybody is saying, and people are really smart and know exactly what kinda of advice to give me.
basically i love everybody and i feel like an idiot for being gay. i wish i wasnt the way i am sometimes but theres nothing i can do. ha enough with the drama deep shit.
back to "caring less" hah.
<3 you |
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| nobody said it was easy |
[Apr. 28th, 2005|10:17 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | f-youuuuu! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | coldplay | ] |
yeah cancel that last entry... thanks. |
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| just want to tell you so you know... |
[Apr. 27th, 2005|09:07 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  mwahahah! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | howie day | ] |
here i go...
okay so basically this weekend...there is a show. it is going to be AMAZING! then next weekend is prom. splooooge.
so okay. i like this guy a lot and hes amazing. and im really happy and life is pretty good.
i hope london rocks out hardcore for me at the mars volta concert. mmm i love ya kid!
I LOVE EVERYONEEEEEEEE!!!!! especially all my girls... and tyler! haaaaaa <3 |
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| here i go, scream my lungs out... |
[Apr. 19th, 2005|06:24 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | mooo! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | my chemical romance | ] |
... and try to get to you, you are my only one.
that song is so good. anyway HAPPY BIRTHDAY LYNN! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!
okay so greenday and mcr tomorrow, bday on friday... prom with tyler...
school is almost out... AHHHHHHHHH! then germany wow so many good things.
sorry i havent updated in a while guys. saturday night was haaaaaa "crunk" yall, i mean for some of the time! hahaha oh well love all yall
and okay thats about it, i love you! |
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| it's not a lie, if you believe it |
[Apr. 10th, 2005|11:21 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  mmm sleepy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | my chemical romance | ] |
yayyyyyy! the play is over, it was fun but sooo stressful! anyway. i'm going to germany so soon it is going to be amazing.
it was patrick and elizabeth's birthday on friday so yeah that's how that goes. life has been so busy this whole year oh well. i need excercise im getting to be a super lazy kid
i need to go to the mall today to pick up some stuff and yeah go to chez elle to get some new sunglasses cause mine broke... so i do believe im leaving.
yesterday was a good day tho so go team!!! |
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| can't you see that this charade is over |
[Apr. 3rd, 2005|02:30 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | mmm | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the mars volta | ] |
okay well! i pratically spent the whole weekend with my lovely carrie, it was amazing!
we went to the mall and chilled then went back to her house and were lazyyyy and then went to my house then to bretts then to the door then to park road shopping area thing and ate at qdoba mmm, and talked about the tecniques/rules of lesbian sex hhmmm great topic. then went back to the door, then dropped carrie and brett off at bretts then i came back to the door!
lots of fun, some of my favorite boys in the world were there: tyler! and milas, andy, jason, daniel and some others. and skipperson and kpierce were there too it was fun.
anddddd i was milas's girlfriend for the night but he claims i was hitting on his best friend the whole night.
then brett came and i followed him to isabelles house, saw josh p., travis taylor, richard poe, sally and others.
then dropped sally off and came home! mmm special and talked to tyler for like 3 hours it was awesome. |
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| i hope you had the time of your life |
[Apr. 2nd, 2005|12:17 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | sdjhasjdask | ] |
| [ | music |
| | greenday! ... punk | ] |
okay soo my birthday is coming up soon! in 20 days!
mcr and greenday in 18 days!
ahhh this month is going to be great i can just tell.
ive been super confused about stuff but i think i got a lot of it figured out. sometimes all of this stuff goes on and you think youre fighting for a good cause, and youre not. you just have to step back and chill out and then youll realize that everthing isnt perfect all the time... but everythings not shitty all the time either. so you have to figure out if its THAT important to you, to just deal with all the mess all the time! ahhhhh that was like my deep comment of the week, ive been such an airhead recently oh well!
everything is going to be great, im determined! andddddd im doing this thing its called "working out" aha or im gonna try hopefully until prom, but we'll see how that goes!
carrie lemons is one of the greatest people i live, i love her so much and shes amazing! im pratically spending this whole weekend with her! yessssss go me!
anyway im out... to eat, workout, shower, and go to the mall ... then going to chill with carrie and hopefully see tyler-- and then to the door to watch my boys rock out. |
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| hate me now so i can move on |
[Mar. 26th, 2005|09:54 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | thank goodness! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | taking back sunday | ] |
okay i still LOVE taking back sunday. mmm mmm good.
dhkjassakd! does anyone else have to put in their password and lj name like a bazillion times now or is it just me! its so annoying, i think i need a new lj name. oh no ill update if i change it.
i think my favorite things in the world are:
sunny days
bojangles
friends/partying
NOT SCHOOL
that was my lsit for today hopefully ill update more later
i cant remember if i posted this in my last entry but im too lazy to go back and look cause this will be deleted and i will have to type in my name and password probably like 6 times so uhh taking back sunday isnt coming to warped tour. im crushed.
oh and underoath is from florida so just pretend i didnt think they were from nc! thanks london.
oh yes and tyler: im sorry you are a boy scout! not a cub scout
oh yeah and i talked to harris and his friend matt, they were somewhere in the keys drinking it was funny!!
anyway i hope everyone has a good day i love you!! |
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| but i cant stop this anymore than you can |
[Mar. 25th, 2005|05:44 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | raddddd | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the mars volta | ] |
mmm old tbs is still the best. so im going out to dinner with jason and jonathan tonight-shall be quite fun. like the old times haha... patrick is like racing right now... crazyyyyy boy. and i got some uber cute pictures developed from the florida trip and some other random ones... i love pictures so i think im gonna start taking a lot. but i noticed not a lot of them had me with people it was just the people which is kinda sketch so im gonna start being in a lot of them too. YAY!
my birthday is in less than a month. i loveeeeeee birthdays APRIL 22nd guys!
2 days after greenday/mcr.
i was looking on the website for warped tour '05 and im pretty dissapointed with some of the bands and like the lack of bands. some of them are really awesome and im siked but others that are on the tour just arent coming to charlotte... like underoath? hello they were born in nc right? why wouldnt they come here... tool bags. anyway my left hand/ arm really hurts it feels like theres a lack of blood which isnt so good... oh well!
this break has turned out to be beautiful and just relaxing has been nice, ive been so go go go like non stop since school started its nice to just chill. i like it lots. im sad, people arent home. but they will be home soon.
this sunday should be fun-- PARTAYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! errrrrrrbody in the club gettin tipsyyy
hahah im the coolest. oh yeah i had lunch with tyler brown- yes THE tyler brown. it was pretty sweet if i do say so myself. i totally knocked over all my food which sucked but it was hilarious so thats good. mmm i love him mucho.
alright im done peace out cub scouts! <3333 |
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| you almost made me cry again this time... |
[Mar. 23rd, 2005|10:26 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  memories | ] |
| [ | music |
| | karma police | ] |
... another false alarm.
mmm the used is still good ahhhh rock hardcore!! anywayy
greenday and MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE! less than a month. yeah okay good.
umm the beach was tons of fun, i love susannah. and being away from certain people... it makes stuff better sometimes.
asterest has a show april 2nd i think so i think thatd be pretty pro if you went. cause they are pretty kick butt. i got to see andy and jason today, they were recording so i was the driver haha YES GO ME!... another day of being worthless.
oc tomorrow night althogh ill have to watch it by myself bc im going to be babysitting for mr phillips. radddd.
k so here is my life: scared to make a decision cause it might be the wrong one, so i dont do it even tho i know what i want, and then i regret it for a LONG time. then t he cycle repeats.
there is so much stuff im thinking about and like some of the things are so awesome i just wish i could like freeze them and stuff and then other stuff is so horrible but it keeps replaying in my mind.
everything will be up to par again soon, i think im just grumpy. i love you guys very much <3
k a r m a p o l i c e (old school radiohead bithces) |
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| freeze without an answer |
[Mar. 9th, 2005|04:41 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  boohoo | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the mars volta | ] |
mmmmm i havent updated in a while. but andy invited me to greenday and mcr, which is amazing. bc i wasnt going to be able to go. hoorrayyyyyyy.
i had an AWESOME time this weekend with susannah and carrie my roommates. i love them lots.
umm frances the mute is incredible!! and a song is in spanish and i feel like an f-n pimp cause i know exactly what its saying. im so radddddd.
its weird when you realize that you are in a situation in which there are no right wayts to do it, only wrong ones. soo its a lose lose situation, love those.
pasta night with amy tonight... then lots of work because im still trying to catch up from all those days i missed, super awesome--- SIKE!
i love everybody, well most people. <3
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